Wounded

I have been reading about and looking at Andy Goldworthy's work in recent weeks. I have been inspired by his sense of connectedness with place in his work, and also the sense of layering, time and cycles of growth and decay that comes out in his installations. Last week all of this came to a sudden stop when a very close colleague and dear friend suddenly died last Sunday. The news of Richard's death was like a massive punch in the stomach. Shock and numbness dominated the whole week. As the week went by I felt an increasing desire to get out to Cape Roger Curtis where I am currently working on a book project. I wanted to be in nature, with nature and away from everyone with my camera and mourn my friend in some way. I had a vague idea of doing an installation at a particular tree the previous week when I walked the forest as he was dying on the other side of the world. That sense of disconnect you experience you find out someone died, and you think back on what you were doing while it happened and how you had no inkling of it was palpable for me on the Monday when I got the news. Maybe that was partly why I felt the need to go back to the forest. It just seemed like the right place to go. I took some japanese maple leaves from my garden with me when I left before sunrise on Saturday morning. I wasn't sure what it was going to be yet. I walked back to the tree I had in mind. It is an alder that stands at the edge of the forest next to the ocean. On the ocean side the bark has been damaged and it has left a large wound on the side of the tree that has grown with the tree. When I saw the wounded tree that still grows it reminded me of Richard's life and how he grew a business in spite of the wounds that he sustained when his dad died unexpectedly and he had to take over the family business. It spoke to me of how life is lived, how we all suffer wounds and how they become part of us and the scars become what define us. The japanese maple leaves reminded me of blood and life. It all came together in the work shown. Initially I thought I would attach the leaves with water, but quickly discovered that the water did not have enough surface tension. I ended up using spit. It gave a new layer of meaning because it left like licking a wound to clean it. The leaves were to stiff to bend so I discovered that I needed to tear the veins out. I needed to destroy the leaves to reveal the work. the piece developed its own rhythm as I made it and developed almost in spite of me, as if it was meant to be this way. After much thought about the work I decided to simply call it: Wounded I will never forget you Richard, the memory of you and the wound of your loss is now part me.

To be creative

I have been having various conversations with a young man who is interested in getting into photography. He owns an old film SLR. He is just starting out, and very keen to get his hands on a brand new shiny DSLR so he can get into the digital scene. But spending over $1000 on a decent mid level DSLR is not within his financial reach and so he is stuck.

I have spent quite a bit of time thinking about what the best way forward is for this young new photographer, and he has been willing to be open to my ideas. I think there were two problems with his approach. One is the assumption that you need a digital camera to get into photography and secondly that you need a high end camera to do photography.

There is an assumption among young photographers that digital photography is the only form of valid photography. In fact film photography does not even come into the realm of the possible for most new photographers. This is unfortunate. Firstly they will never experience the incredible magic of seeing a print appear on paper in the developer tray. That was the thing that hooked me forever on making pictures. Secondly they will likely never learn how exposure works unless they make a serious effort to learn their digital camera’s manual mode. This is essential, because learning to see and understand light is critical if you want to be a photographer. Doing black and white film is one of the single best ways to learn to see the light. In my view it is the most important fundamental skill that you need to know if you want to be a serious photographer. It is the photographic equivalent of having to learn classic music before you can play jazz.

I have been encouraging him to use that film SLR and to buy some black and film stock. Spending about $100 will get you everything you need to develop film in your bathroom. Once he has developed the negatives they can be scanned and converted to a digital work flow, which will allow him to still enter the digital online world with his images. I think this is an excellent route for a new photographer to learn the craft.

The second assumption of needing a high end camera may be true depending on what you use the images for. If you are shooting for commercial purposes then yes, you need the best possible camera you can afford. But the vast majority of young new photographers have to learn their art before they can sell their product. The two require separate skills and the second is impossible without the first.

To learn the art photography, or drawing with light, you only need a box with a hole and a light sensitive surface. Most of us have one in our cellphone, mp3 player, compact digital or an unused old film camera sitting on a forgotten shelf. Chase Jarvis recently did a talk about the consequences of creativity in Denver. It is worth listening to because it elegantly makes the point that we need to feed our creative habit for its own sake, and that the consequences of that process are far larger that we can anticipate when we do it.

The engaging in that process requires a personal commitment of energy from our side. A commitment to be carried along with the flow of ideas and acts which are mostly done for fun and often will fail but all add to our creative development as an artist.

I wanted to make this point as strongly as I can, so I put away my fancy DSLR with its prime lenses, took our five year old (which in digital terms is ancient) compact digital camera and kept it with me for a day, making images and short videos as I went about my daily business of earning a living. The end result is the short 2 minute video below. It was made for fun, to make the point that you can use any camera to be creative and hopefully also gives a glimpse into my own creative process, in terms of how I see and how that leads to the making of a photo.

See the video on youtube: http://bit.ly/Ri89V